And It Starts

All these highs and lows we experience are a part of life. I could tell you that everyone is tested for the good of the world and so that we can grow to be more complete people. But tell that to a person in the thick of it, in the depths of turmoil and they will not take kindly to such conjecture.

We are a generation of impatient people and that impatience is what is driving people away from the Church, the body of Christ. We want everything here and now. We want to feel salvation. We want to live in accordance to His word. But we don't want to work our way to get there we want to just be there.

We want to have the fast fix, the 12 steps to freedom, the miracle pill, whatever it looks like doesn't matter, because regardless, that magic solution to our problems doesn't exist.

I've been a Christian for 8 years now and since Christ found me out there on the fringe of reality I have taken a very long path with Him. From Atheist to "little Christ" it is not a smooth path. Holy shit is it not a smooth path.

This is a constant battle between your heart in mind. We constantly fight between what we know and what we want to be true. And in the end it's all for naught. I've given up to pick back up the cross more times than I can count, but it always comes back to me not being able to just leave the cross on the ground. Something inside me, requires me to hold it up, and to carry it everyday. And if you think this "metaphorical cross" is light, you have another thing coming.

It puts stress on you. Jesus said "my yoke is light" while that may be true, the weight of the yoke is light, keeping the yoke on, is the hardest thing for me. I've been non-conformity for as long as I could remember. I generally try to stay out of trends or fads, and when push comes to shove, my pride is to blame for that.

Two years ago, when I was writing this blog I pinned the weight of my transgressions on my pride. I knew I was right, and I knew that there was a particular fierceness that comes from an inflated sense of ego. It's tough to really talk about actually. But that is going to be the main focus of this blog for the next long bit here. I may throw in some other stuff, but the majority will be about the human spirit and the human brain's constant tangle and the hopeful reconcilliation that Christ has to offer anyone who may be struggling and may be wanting out of this dreadful pride situation. I will be growing through this too. But I've been sitting watching the pride of us all for too long.

I hope this message finds you well.
Until we meet again.