Chikin and other sports.

This Chik-fil-A crap makes me physically ill.

It sounds glum, but America has no place for Christianity anymore, they can't handle it.

The secular mode in society is so far gone, that people are so afraid of ONE Christian ideal, that they will debate AT LENGTH, the rights of people to have them at all.  It's a downward slope, and I don't think that it's going to improve.

Because everything I've read, and I've read a lot, spells the story not that Gay rights are worth defending, but that Christian beliefs are worth revoking. Not in that you benefit from dropping your beliefs, but that they will benefit from taking them away.

As long as people are too afraid to enter into a mature conversation over what they believe and not what "rights" we "should" have, progress will be a dormant amalgamation of the American mindset and the inability to handle change. Not that Christians are close-minded but that the maturity of people in the face of adversity (that being of one man stating what his company is founded on) can not handle something so simple in this period of "entitlement" that we are living in.

We as a people are so obsessed with overthrowing the way we are living for those greener pastures (everyone is, not just the gays, or the christians, or the muslims, or the blacks, or whoever, everyone) that we are denying our history, we are contorting tolerance into conversion, and we are doing a great deal of damage to our community in the process.

There is a huge problem with why this is as big a deal as it is, and people are becoming swept up in the circus. Think about it, Dan Cathy says that he supports the biblical definition of marriage, and boom... HATE SPEECH!

Wait... are people so blind to see how perverted that thinking is.

He didn't say, "DOWN WITH QUEERS!" He didn't say, "I AIN'T SELLING FOOD TO NO HOMO". No, he simply expressed his constitutional right to affirm what he believes, and the secular community at large condemns him as a bigot? What the fuck is up with this?

I mean, generally speaking, when I'm having a conversation with a non-believer about what I believe and what they believe, I'm not called a hater for believing that Christ is the one who has saved my soul, when that person doesn't believe that same thing.

In general, I think this is an issue that Christianity, is completely misunderstood by the American people. Even the Christians, for a solid portion misunderstand the point of Christianity. The bible belt, with it's racist intolerant undertones are being quite outspoken in this particular time, hearing reports from Georgia and Louisiana where people are coming into Chik-fil-A and saying "Good thing I don't have to eat with a queer." That is isolated to few instances where people are subjected to that type of bigotry.

The other side, where cities are booting the chain from their streets and mongering cheers of hate-speech from pro-gay loudspeakers are so much more prevalent. The facebook events of "Chik-Fil-A Appreciation Day" and the adverse "Chik-Fil-A kiss in" show a staggering number. 688,000+ were listed as "attending" for this appreciation day, whereas the kiss in was slated at 13,000+ "attending". This is one sampling but what do you hear on the news?

"Chik-Fil-A's gay fallout" among other minority voices crying out the loudest. Throwing words, discriminatory, bigoted, and homophobic. The only problem with this is, that people have no right to deem Cathy's actions homophobic...

I know, I know... opening your mouth to speak is a horrible offence but Cathy's has done nothing wrong in the eyes of people with his perspective. NOT PEOPLE WHO AGREE WITH HIM, exactly, but people who share his perspective.

The hate-speech he is accused of, has been blown so far out of the realm of what he said, it's tough to discern it, he said he has aimed to "treat every person with honor, dignity and respect -- regardless of their belief, race, creed, sexual orientation or gender.” Yeah, total hate-speech right? He has said he is "guilty as charged" for believing in traditional marriage.

And my big question is SO WHAT?

Since when did disagreeing with what the populus is deeming as appropriate constitute hate speech?

When did civil liberties for gays superceed the importance of every other person in the country? I'm not anti-gay, I'm not anti-gay rights, but when these movements toward equality venture past a movement and into a proverbial witch-hunt of any advocate of "conservative values" to make them out to be a villan is less of a movement and more of a detriment to progress as a whole.

I don't know how things got to be this way but I know the Jesus taught us that tolerating people who are different from you is the only way to effectively instill healthy progression, that's true for Christians and pro-gay's alike.

It seems like the sides are even on intolerance taking Cathy's words out of the equation but right now all I see are the intolerance coming from the pro-gay community, which tells me a lot about where the heart of America lies, and that's with the pro-gay agenda, so good luck Christians.

I hope this message finds you well.

And It Starts

All these highs and lows we experience are a part of life. I could tell you that everyone is tested for the good of the world and so that we can grow to be more complete people. But tell that to a person in the thick of it, in the depths of turmoil and they will not take kindly to such conjecture.

We are a generation of impatient people and that impatience is what is driving people away from the Church, the body of Christ. We want everything here and now. We want to feel salvation. We want to live in accordance to His word. But we don't want to work our way to get there we want to just be there.

We want to have the fast fix, the 12 steps to freedom, the miracle pill, whatever it looks like doesn't matter, because regardless, that magic solution to our problems doesn't exist.

I've been a Christian for 8 years now and since Christ found me out there on the fringe of reality I have taken a very long path with Him. From Atheist to "little Christ" it is not a smooth path. Holy shit is it not a smooth path.

This is a constant battle between your heart in mind. We constantly fight between what we know and what we want to be true. And in the end it's all for naught. I've given up to pick back up the cross more times than I can count, but it always comes back to me not being able to just leave the cross on the ground. Something inside me, requires me to hold it up, and to carry it everyday. And if you think this "metaphorical cross" is light, you have another thing coming.

It puts stress on you. Jesus said "my yoke is light" while that may be true, the weight of the yoke is light, keeping the yoke on, is the hardest thing for me. I've been non-conformity for as long as I could remember. I generally try to stay out of trends or fads, and when push comes to shove, my pride is to blame for that.

Two years ago, when I was writing this blog I pinned the weight of my transgressions on my pride. I knew I was right, and I knew that there was a particular fierceness that comes from an inflated sense of ego. It's tough to really talk about actually. But that is going to be the main focus of this blog for the next long bit here. I may throw in some other stuff, but the majority will be about the human spirit and the human brain's constant tangle and the hopeful reconcilliation that Christ has to offer anyone who may be struggling and may be wanting out of this dreadful pride situation. I will be growing through this too. But I've been sitting watching the pride of us all for too long.

I hope this message finds you well.
Until we meet again.

The Sweep

So it's been quite a bit of time since I've written here, but it's not been forever. I think if you haven't updated your blog in over a year... get a new freaking blog.

I digress.

To be short, I'm now married. And going through immigration in Canada.

Mom wasn't happy, but she was confident in my decisions. So that's all I'd ever ask someone.

Ashleigh is my favorite person ever.

And God is slowly being let back into my life.

I'm going to be getting back into what this blog was originally supposed to be. I feel the need to do this so hopefully someone out there will be reading this. I hope this message finds you well.

Marriages and Complications therein.

Hello blog... so we meet again....

I'm up in the great white north of Canadia... er... Canada. I've been up here for about 2 months. And it's been well awesome, be it slow (a double edged sword in this case) but awesome nevertheless.

I am hoofing it wherever I go, so being parked in Brantford, Ontario isn't exactly the center of activity in this beautiful country. But regardless, I'm able to spend time with my best friend. And she's worth any and all downtime that there may be, even if it's more than I'm used to. I will be heading back in about 2 months so this is pretty much the halfway point.

So what have I been up to?

Well, I've gone on my first cross country bus ride and gone through customs for the first time. And then saw Niagara Falls, the greatest wonder in this corner of the continent. And that was the first week. :) I realized that Ashleigh's sister terrifies me behind the wheel, and that I have a lot of growing up to do. And that a/c is a beautiful thing.

Ashleigh and I are getting married, if I can ever get a chance to propose to her. It's hard when I don't have money, or a car and a way to plan something really incredible. But there is always time for things like that :). At least another month or so.

We have met with immigration services and the only possible way to get me here sans going to school and getting a specialty in something is going to be marriage. And in one respect that sucks. Because we will be unable to see each other like we want and to be able to cultivate a life together and all the things that people dream of if we don't get married and in one respect it sucks because we don't get the option to really prepare a proper wedding because we will not be able to conjure resources and take the time to really do this the way we want but then on the other hand we get to get married and stop a little bit of the worry we have about what we are doing and we get to start the process of immigration. So hopefully we will fly through this process (God willing) and we will see what lies ahead :). Until we meet again.

You Win Some, You Lose Some

So it's been forever and a day since I last blogged. And since no one reads this thing I'm not guessing many people missed it.

Anyway, so in the past... god, 11 months? I don't know how long it's been... too long regardless. A lot of change has happened.

First and foremost, I am now staying with my mom on a permanent basis. I know, I know... lame as hell. But really in the end this was the best...ish thing that could've happened.

To say that my life is by any means conventional right now is an understate of epic proportions, I have no car because I guess God doesn't want me to drive myself places... which sucks because driving is kinda fucking awesome. So I'm working at the same place which is now a half hour drive and my mom (bless her heart drives me there). But my days there are numbered.

And by numbered I mean they will not last forever, meaning I'm leaving, and this time it's definite. Hoo to the rah.

April 7th will be my last day. And then she comes back.... wait oh yeah you don't know about her.

Ashleigh Curzon. This is my girlfriend :) She's Canadian and loves me. That's all you need to know right now. I'm going to Canada for a few months with her. And I hope it goes well.

With Much Suffering

It's 2:42 am as I'm beginning to write this. My mind won't let me sleep. I can't get it out of my head. The aching in my heart it's terrible. But I'm casting it all aside. I'm rewinding the tape so to speak and letting God have it all.

I have my own computer. talk to you later.

Retardation

The day was hot the water was cold and the lady wept from exhaustion. To me she came with fleeting hopes and I heeded her words with caution. She lay her head on my arm as I comforted her in the shade and told her to hold on and not give up and the music stopped.... I mustn't go on.