Only In Dreams

I once took a long walk. I didn't tell anyone where I was going. I just left. I walked to the end of my driveway. Then to the end of my street. Then to the end of the next road.

When one road ended, another one was there to accept me. And so I went along, smiling as the road kept me all the company I needed.

As I went on this road to the next and that one to the next after that. I noticed these distances grew greater. And eventually I wanted to be back in my driveway.

I didn't want to be walking anymore. I didn't even remember what roads I took to get where I now was.

I tried going backwards to where I had been but I guess those wrong turns just end roads, they didn't continue like they had before.

So I tried trudging forward since I had no past. But my courage faltered and I sat by the side of the road and waited. I don't know what I was waiting for in the middle of nowhere.

A sign maybe? A person who knew the way? Death?

I waited.... and waited... and waited... and waited... and you get the picture.

The sun beat down on me. And I was drained of my sweat as the summer heat blazed in my veins.

I couldn't decipher the real people from the mirages out there. Hope was very bleak. And I crawled to my knees and started crawling down the road I'd been to afraid to continue on.

I just wanted to go back home. Why was that too much to ask? Who was I asking? Why was I talking to myself?

I crawled until my knees gave out. And I pulled myself along until my arms gave out.

I was helpless. A heap of trash on the side of the road. I could hear the vultures.... lets not think about that.

I roll over and lay on my back as I stare into the cloud covered sky. At least it wasn't blinding like I was expecting.

I look across the expanse and see a rainbow in the distance. And my eyes go bright... rain.

The rain comes and starts to fall. Sweet relief after seemingly lifetimes of waiting. The rain comes. The droplets splash over my face as I lay with my mouth open wide. My clothes stick to my body as I lay on the road.

My skin absorbs the moisture and with it comes revitalization. Sweet release that I can move again.

I roll to my knees and push up down with my feet to raise me up. Stumbling and fumbling I ramble back down the road to an intersection....

Where to turn... where to turn.